The rain started drenching my body , my heart ached after watching what I wasn't supposed to watch . Why would he do that to me ?  How can he not tell me ? How he could be too ruthless ? 

My knees started wobbling as I stood up and fell on my knees on the ground . A sob left my throat as my heart clenched with pain . More doubts started pouring in my brain . 

I looked up at the dark sky covered with clouds and the rain pouring from them . The rain drops mixed with my tears as they fell on my face hurting my eyes in a different way accompanied with the stinging pain in my heart. 

Why God Why? Why I am the one who gets the whole pain ? What wrong did I do to gain this type of life , loveless , hopeless from all the sides. 

Now I'll never hope for love in my life , Never ! There is no love in my life , my life is loveless and I am the person who is surviving through it . I thought and wiped my tears with the back of my hand standing up as I changed my expressions  I picked up my mobile phone and walked towards the front door of the apartment . 

I messaged the person , "Who are you and how did you get this ?" still walking and then entered the elevator pushing the buttons with shaky hands .  My heart's pace is still running like a damn horse runs in the field . A shaky breath leaves my mouth and I feel like crying all again . My eyes filled up fresh tears which I wiped them away but  they kept on coming painting my cheeks with their wetness . I wiped my face with the sleeve of my tee  this time hard enough to peel the skin off it since I can feel a stinging sensation on my face and it started burning but not enough to erase the pain of my heart . 

The elevator pinged and I went inside the apartment which is so silent . I made my way towards my room since I can't see Maa in the kitchen as well as in the living room . She might be in her room , thinking so I ran upstairs and crashed inside my room . I was about to close the door with a loud thud that's when I remembered that Rehan was in his deep sleep and I should not disturb him at all . SO tiptoeing on my toes , I closed the door lightly and locked it . 

I was fully drenched because of the rain so I decided to take a quick shower before going to bed.  But before going in the shower I sent a quick message to Maa . 

"Maa , I am  taking a nap so don't I am in my room you can give me call or message." I pressed the send button and still tiptoeing I went inside the bathroom to take a warm shower . 

Taking out my new clothes I strip from my drenched ones and went inside the glass cabin separating the vanity from the other bathroom . I turned on the shower and slowly the water turned warm so I took a soothing bath and not to ignore I cried there too as I can see my eyes in the vanity mirror  dark red and swollen from crying . 

Drying my hair quickly I put some moisturizer on my face and hands . I then slipped in my bedroom behaving like a thief and then I sat on the other side of bed . Slowly I pull the comforter over my body and Rehan's too . I hugged him close to my heart as he is the only therapy of mine for this face . For the last few years he was with me and whenever I felt low I hugged and he cuddled with me sometimes he even  slept on my stomach clinging like a Koala bear does . 

With my baby I forget my every pain , he is my healer for sure , THE GIFT OF GOD EXCLUSIVELY FOR ME. I smiled internally at the thought and suddenly he snuggled more into me hugging me , I hugged him and didn't realise when I dozed off leaving my pain and happiness behind while I hugged my baby . 

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I woke up from my deep sleep when I felt the weight on my stomach , my eyes fluttered open in a jerk only to find Rehan sitting on my stomach while his both legs are on either side of me and his elbows on his knees and his little hands under his chin as he was watching me fully focused on my me . 

"What happened Baby?" My voice croaked and I think I might get a slight cold because my throat is sore . 

"What happened to you mumma?" He asked in  gibberish language and cupped my cheeks with both of his little hands. 

"Nothing Baby , Your Mumma is extra fine see." I said as I spread both of my arms to show me . 

"Then why are your eyes red ? And your voice is also not fine." He said as his lips wobbled as if he was on the verge of crying . The first thought that stuck into my mind was How can a little one be so smart ? 

"No Baby , Don't cry . My eyes are red because of shampoo it got into my eyes when I was washing my hair and my voice is croaked because I caught cold." I cooed and explained as I sat up in a sitting position and hugged him while he was slightly sobbing . 

"I love you so much Mumma." He hiccupped in his sobs and I stroked his back to stop him from crying . 

"Now my baby is a good boy right ?" I asked with a smile 

He nodded aggressively while smiling and I hugged him again tightly . 

"One more thing." I said still smiling to him . 

He didn't reply but started looking at my face with a big question mark . 

"You are going to school from tomorrow." I cheered and he watched me like I detonated a bomb at him  . 

"What ? You are not happy about school?" I asked with my eyebrows pinched .

"But I have no friends." He pouted . 

"OH my poor baby , you'll make a lots of them but promise me you would be a good kid ." I said with a smile . 

"Promise Mumma." He replied and then I started tickling him as he started giggling I tickled him more and more . 

"Mamaa! You are a naughty girll!" He whined in between his giggles making me burst out laughing . 

"Hawwww!!! You are calling your innocent Mumma naughty ? Bad boy Rehan." I managed to say in between my laughs still controlling it . 

"Mumma jiii , Stop na." He whined again as I tickled him more and more . Seeing him breathless I stopped my little torture on my little one . 

"Huff , Thank God jii." He huffed when I stopped and kissed his both cheeks . 

"yeah yeah , Thank God because he gave you a beautiful Mumma." I grinned like a child . 

"Yesss yess." He giggled and stood up from my lap not without kissing my cheeks . 

"Chalo let's go downstairs." I said and stood up from the bed while he was using my phone when it beeped but I ignored it and started moving towards the door . 

"Come fast baby , Leave the phone." I said folding my arms over my chest waiting for him . 

"Mumma only two minutes pleaseeeee." He waved me off making me huff at his behaviour but ignored it 'cause he is my good boy . 

 I closed the door behind and he started blabbering something  which I couldn't hear properly because of the door acting as barrier . 

So , I decided to walk downstairs .